Tomorrow will be 6 weeks since the bits were evicted. I went today for my post-op appointment. I had a daVinci total hysterectomy (taking my cervix and uterus, but leaving my ovaries), which in doctor language is a RATH. Who knew. Anyway, the reason the bits had to go was because I had fibroids. Lots and lots of fibroids. The largest one was about the size of a cantaloupe with several others close in size. She (the doctor) said she was pleasantly surprised that she was able to do the surgery robotically as she was a little bit doubtful still as she was “feeling around” after I was under to see if it was going to work. (I had to sign off on both surgery types and even then if she would have had to do it the other way she still would have scrubbed out and went asked Hubs for consent and then scrubbed back in). A “normal” uterus weighs between 80 and 100 grams. Mine was 650+.
As of today, I have lost 12 pounds. Some of it was the extra weight of the bits, other was from the artificial hormones (birth control for years to help control my cycle and then the injections the 3 months prior to surgery to shrink the fibroids) and some of it was just one to many oreo cookies.
I thought sitting in the waiting room with all of the pregnant ladies and babies was going to be the difficult part of the visit. It wasn’t easy (ask Thelma she was the unfortunate recipient of my woe is me text messages) but by no means was it the hardest part. The exam wasn’t either. I took a thank you card for my doctor and gave it to her at the end of my visit. That is when I lost it. Right then at that very moment it made everything so very final. I am sure the people in the waiting room felt sorry for the poor lady crying leaving the doctors office, wondering what was wrong. I just couldn’t hold the tears in anymore.
I will miss my doctor (who I adore like crazy and would recommend her highly to everyone I know), I have seen her every 2 -3 weeks for the last 6 months or so. She has allowed me to feel better than I have in a very long time and I will be forever grateful to her for that.
I have lost something that gave me the greatest gift in the world, my girl. It hurts even though we knew long ago that she would be our only biological child. We have also learned that blood is not what makes a family and know that we still have lots of love left to give and will look towards the future and adding another branch to our family tree in whatever way it is that God has planned for us.