I AM A SLACKER!

If it wasn’t for the last minute I wouldn’t get a damn thing done.  I work best under pressure. We are moving out Saturday morning. Are we all packed? Not even close. What is it that we are doing? Reading blogs and trying to watch everything that is saved on our tivo as tomorrow it will be no more. We will be tivo-less for the next 3-4 months.  Are you  sitting  down? The rental house will not have satellite or cable t.v. I am not sure how well that is going to go but even worse, DIAL.UP. is all I have to say. I am really hoping a neighbor has wireless that isn’t blocked. If not I am not sure how often I will get a chance to update. I can blog at work, but am not sure I am willing to risk “being found out”.

My friend Karma came back again today, but I will have to share another time. Hubs just watched his last Deadliest Catch and I have about 2 weeks worth of Young and the Restless to zip through and it is already way past my bedtime!!

My Past Came Back To Me Today

I have a new BFF, her name is Karma. If I could kiss her square on the lips I would.

Lets go back in time a bit. I grew up a military brat. As my dad and my friend’s parents started to retire alot of us ended up living in the same neighborhoods off base and going to the same high school. One friend Marie, actually moved in next door to us. We were attached at the hip and where one was the other wasn’t far away. Marie’s mom had a friend who was around alot. Lets call her Sam. Sam’s husband was also retired military and had worked with my dad and Marie’s dad.

When I got pregnant with Noodle, the hubs and I were not married. In Sam’s opinion, I was every name in the book and Marie should not hang around me and I had ruined my life, would never amount to anything,  she didn’t approve and Marie could find “better” friends than I.  Sam was not too proud to tell me these things to my face or to my parents or Marie’s parents.

A quick recap shall we? I ruined my life, the life of the baby, and would never amount to anything. Still with me?

The babysitter signed Noodle and her kids up for some craft camp thing a few days this week. I asked Noodle about it yesterday and asked about other kids in the class. She said she knew all of them except one little boy, but he was naughty and didn’t mind his manners. So I walked in this morning to drop her off and was chatting with the sitter. I wasn’t really paying attention and when I looked up who stood in front of me? Why, yes it was Sam I Am.  She said hello to me and used my name so I know she knows who I was.

I introduced her to Noodle. She asked her about school, Noodle told her where she goes (Private school, you nasty hag), she asked about Hubs (he has a very high position and continues to climb the ladder) and stared at my finger (I had on my big ol’ rock that I don’t wear very often as I hate to show off bling), she asked where we were living, Noodle said we don’t have a house right now but sitter was quick to jump in and tell her we were building a new house and when she asked where is was her eyes about popped out of her head.  ( I promise I am not trying to brag about my life, it isn’t all peaches and cream but with Sam I just had to let her have it with both barrels).

It was all I could do to ask her why she was there. Turns out her daughter also got knocked up, not once but twice and she has custody of the kids (OMG! Naughty boy is her grandson!!) because their mother can’t take care of them and daddy is long gone. I am very sorry to hear that the daughter is not doing so well. But sure as shit, I did a little jig on my way out. 

Karma, oh how I love thee. You took your sweet time coming around but oh it was pure bliss when you did. Please come back again soon.

Jet Lagged.

Hi Honey! Were home. I am so tired I can barely see straight. I will be back tomorrow with a real post once I get a good night sleep in my own bed. Until then, enjoy the few pictures below. Noodle’s won’t be up long, it scares the crap out of me to even post one showing her face, but how can I keep the cuteness all to myself?

Gone Fishin’




Gone Fishin’

Originally uploaded by marmagoo

I am off until the beginning of next week. It is the absolute worst time for me to be going with the events of the past few days but timing hasn’t always been my strong point I suppose.

It is bittersweet for me. On one side, BFF’s marriage is over and on the other hand my girl M is head over heels in love and Saturday is the day she has dreamed of since she was old enough to now what a wedding was.

I will get to spend 6 days in my beloved Podunk. My stompin’ grounds. As much as I always look foward to going home, I don’t think I will be taking my heart with me. I have a hard time being happy when I know someone I care about so much is hurting to the depths of their soul.

My sweet Noodle is there though and I can’t wait to wrap my arms around her and swirl her around in circles, kissing her neck to make her giggle.

Hug those you love a little tighter tonight, you never know if they will be there tomorrow.

The End

Last night my BFF’s  world came crashing down around her. When my phone rang last night and I saw it was her I was filled with panic. It was way to late for her to be calling “just because”. I am not sure I answered with a hello, I think it was a whats wrong.

As it is her story to tell, the details here will be few and far between for the time being. I am sure that most anyone with 2 brain cells can guess what happened.

We are broken hearted for her and the boys. Part of our struggle comes from not only the fact that she is my BFF, Mr. BFF would be Hubs BFF, if indeed boys had BFF’s. After I got off the phone with her I told Hubs the situation. By the time I was done telling him, he was wiping the tears away from his eyes. We are sad for us, but are devastated for BFF and if truth be told for Mr.BFF as well.

Hubs and I talked about it for a bit and then I told him with a stern voice “WE.ARE.NOT.PICKING.SIDES.”  When I finally turned off the t.v. at 3:00 a.m. this morning because prior to that I just couldn’t sleep, I must admit deep in my heart the lines were drawn. I keep telling myself there are 2 sides to every story. This one is just not going to end with a happily ever after.